Michele's elegy

When you walked away I searched for you
Day and night evening and noon time
When you left my sight I longed for you
I felt like my soul led a thousand person search for you
Flash lights street lights still I looked
I did not realize that you were captured by Gods light
He took you away to his heavenly realm
His love overshadowed the fact that I wanted you to stay with me
He knew you were hurting and tired so he wrapped you in his blanket of love
It took me sometime to forgive this notion that you were gone
Although we hadn’t talked in so long I missed the thought of you accessibility
Your love shines within me as a trophy of honor
Your strength lives within me
This is from me to you
Sometimes even after four years I still search for you
When im at graduation ill be looking for you
When I get married ill be looking for you
Just like you never left
Your spirit will reside in my heart
So if your up there watching I just want to let you know
ill be looking,searching, longing everywhere I go

my first time

my first time
uncomfortable
unusual
i had never felt this way before
i had never left anything in that place never let that thing invade my space
until i heard how effective it was
the praises that were sung of it

curious and nervous i tried it
i opened myself and let it in
to stay for a little while
i did not feel the initial impact until it emerged its self within me
i wanted the feeling to stop
but i let it stay only to intrude my body a little while longer
it felt right but it didn't at the same time
i had finally reached another level of womanhood
this act proved my maturity
i will never forget it
my first time

Searching to Find

on a search to find something thats missing
hoping that it reveals its self
whatever it is needs to be replenished replaced or revived
because there is a void that needs to be filled
something is missing
seriously searching for what is missing
maybe you can help me....

my family &hearts:
James 1:2-4
Consider it pure joy, my brothers, whenever you face trials of many kinds, because you know that the testing of your faith develops perseverance. Perseverance must finish its work so that you may be mature and complete, not lacking anything.