i am in love with the thought of love
drifting upon the sea or sailing along the border of Hampton's waterfront
where we used to sit and look at the sun or the moon or each other
In love with the thought of us being of actual happiness staying around
in love with the fact that i am in love with you
In love with the fact that i could have been so happy at one point
i felt so at peace
late nights at water front things left unsaid
where we started watching the sky and then the sky watched our most intimate moments
which had nothing to do with sex
its clear to see that I miss you
when have i ever stopped what seems impossible to everyone else seems so attainable to me CANT YOU SEE i am in love with the fact that we could be in love with the dreams i have of you and me in love with you
i flirt and have fun but at the end of the day its you
my friends don't understand but i cant shake how i feel
we argue over and over again and you would think id flee
plenty of busses coming past this stop many fishes in the sea many princes to sweep me off my feel I still want you
you don't understand that I want you for you not for how you dress how you look or the fact that you can play and sing your anointing draws me to you i love your personality so different yet so the same in the end we both wanted someone to be there unconditionally now i cant be a beauty queen everyday but i can be me and if thats not enough for you then we just cant be just want you to realize that i never stopped caring through every argument through every hurtful word i still loved you through the criticism i problably wont share this with you over the phone because its time for me to fall back but just know in the mean time that my love wont stop in 2010
Monday, December 27, 2010
Saturday, December 25, 2010
Christmas time :)!
today is the day the Jesus was born. He came heal heart and mend the broken. He came so that we may have life and have it more abundantly. He is the love of my life so I had to celebrate him on his birthday. There is no limits to where he can take you!!. He loved all of us enough to die for us and he's coming back for us one day! What present are you going to give to the awesome being on his birthday!!! How about obedience,love and showing the world his attributes :)!! MERRY CHRISTMAS
Thursday, December 16, 2010
just remember
Again I stepped out of faith only to be crushed by reality
Sinking deep within me is the tragedy that unfolds
I'm thinking of a time when there was you and I
A time when everything was alright
Lets take it back to those summer Philly nights
When we would stay on the phone and talk all night
With no thought for tomorrow
Thinking of a time when there would be no more sorrow
Of the day where we could become one
Of the day where we could see the sun
Missing the ways you used to hold me
All of the things you showed and told me
I never thought you would betray me
Is this my pay back for when I negated you
I never meant to leave you so
Going through what you went through a lone in the cold
Why couldn't you have just let me know
Oh how i wanted to tell you so
I guess this is my pay back for trying to hide what I already knew was the truth inside
I just did not want to hurt you pride or ruin your surprise
I was trying to make it easier on you that why I let you slide
So I guess this is my pay back for hurting you so
Well I guess you won for now so I'm gonna let you go
Go find the woman that does what you like
Go find the woman that treats you right
Go find the woman that does all you want her to do
But in the midst of your searching know that I love you
You'll try to find that one that loves you more than me
put up with all of your crap
even when you set me free
let you push me aside and throw me around
let you play with my emotions
and to me you looked down
let you put me out there for all to see
but in the midst of all this hurt I still love you unconditionally
told my business for the world to know
so now that you’ve broken my heart how do I let you go
Sinking deep within me is the tragedy that unfolds
I'm thinking of a time when there was you and I
A time when everything was alright
Lets take it back to those summer Philly nights
When we would stay on the phone and talk all night
With no thought for tomorrow
Thinking of a time when there would be no more sorrow
Of the day where we could become one
Of the day where we could see the sun
Missing the ways you used to hold me
All of the things you showed and told me
I never thought you would betray me
Is this my pay back for when I negated you
I never meant to leave you so
Going through what you went through a lone in the cold
Why couldn't you have just let me know
Oh how i wanted to tell you so
I guess this is my pay back for trying to hide what I already knew was the truth inside
I just did not want to hurt you pride or ruin your surprise
I was trying to make it easier on you that why I let you slide
So I guess this is my pay back for hurting you so
Well I guess you won for now so I'm gonna let you go
Go find the woman that does what you like
Go find the woman that treats you right
Go find the woman that does all you want her to do
But in the midst of your searching know that I love you
You'll try to find that one that loves you more than me
put up with all of your crap
even when you set me free
let you push me aside and throw me around
let you play with my emotions
and to me you looked down
let you put me out there for all to see
but in the midst of all this hurt I still love you unconditionally
told my business for the world to know
so now that you’ve broken my heart how do I let you go
Monday, December 13, 2010
Happy Birthday
I hope you realize that your days are brighter and better than you think. When you think all s lost look into the eyes of your son and hell give you all the strength you need. Ill still be there for you even when i'm far away. You'll always be one of my best friends even though our love did not stay. It went frolicking along the sea like fish in heat (if that even happens). Our friendship blossomed into a beautiful butterfly!So I just wanted to tell you Happy Birthday!
Relationship Bill of Rights
1.I have the right to be treated with dignity and respect.
2.I have a right to follow my own values and standards
3.I have the right to say no and not feel guilty.
4.I have the right to experience and express my feelings.
5.I have the right to feel safe.
6.I have the right to take time for myself.
7.I have the right to change my mind.
8.I have the right to ask for what I want.
9.I have the right to ask for information.
10.I have the right to make mistakes.
11.I have the right to do less than I am humanly capable of doing.
12.I have the right to be me and feel good about myself.
13.I have the right to leave conversations with people who make me feel put down or humiliated
14.I have the right to act only in ways that will promote my dignity and self-respect.
15.I have the right to feel scared and say "I'm afraid".
16.I have the right to end the relationship.
17.I have the right not to be responsible for others' behavior, actions, feelings, or problems.
18.I have the right to expect honesty from others
19.I have the right to all of my feelings
20.I have the right to make decisions based on my feelings, my judgments, or any reason that I choose.
21.I have the right to change and grow.
22.I have the right to be happy.
23.I have the right to make friends and be myself around people.
24.I have the right to be angry at someone I love.
25.I have the right to both experience and let go of fear, guilt, and shame.
2.I have a right to follow my own values and standards
3.I have the right to say no and not feel guilty.
4.I have the right to experience and express my feelings.
5.I have the right to feel safe.
6.I have the right to take time for myself.
7.I have the right to change my mind.
8.I have the right to ask for what I want.
9.I have the right to ask for information.
10.I have the right to make mistakes.
11.I have the right to do less than I am humanly capable of doing.
12.I have the right to be me and feel good about myself.
13.I have the right to leave conversations with people who make me feel put down or humiliated
14.I have the right to act only in ways that will promote my dignity and self-respect.
15.I have the right to feel scared and say "I'm afraid".
16.I have the right to end the relationship.
17.I have the right not to be responsible for others' behavior, actions, feelings, or problems.
18.I have the right to expect honesty from others
19.I have the right to all of my feelings
20.I have the right to make decisions based on my feelings, my judgments, or any reason that I choose.
21.I have the right to change and grow.
22.I have the right to be happy.
23.I have the right to make friends and be myself around people.
24.I have the right to be angry at someone I love.
25.I have the right to both experience and let go of fear, guilt, and shame.
Saturday, December 11, 2010
My response
I will never give up on you never giving up on us
Though about giving up on you and it just caused me confusion and stress
People say we shouldn't’t be
They don’t understand you and me
Who are they to judge?
Finally said the words I had to say
And I’m going to show you every bit of it
I LOVE YOU!!
There I said it again
God healed me how about you and yes I still care for you too
It’s a shame we can’t have our friends share in our happiness
I want to tell them so bad everyday
You are on the list of my hearts desires
I want us to last
Its written now so that means it has to happen
God please let your will be done in us and our relationship
We both want this so badly
Only time will tell
For now let’s take it S-L-O-W :p)
Though about giving up on you and it just caused me confusion and stress
People say we shouldn't’t be
They don’t understand you and me
Who are they to judge?
Finally said the words I had to say
And I’m going to show you every bit of it
I LOVE YOU!!
There I said it again
God healed me how about you and yes I still care for you too
It’s a shame we can’t have our friends share in our happiness
I want to tell them so bad everyday
You are on the list of my hearts desires
I want us to last
Its written now so that means it has to happen
God please let your will be done in us and our relationship
We both want this so badly
Only time will tell
For now let’s take it S-L-O-W :p)
I lost my stuff
Where did my stuff go
I lost it in the realm of possibility
The realm of creativity
Someone please help me find my stuff
It was a huge bag full of joy happiness self esteem and much more
Please please please! HELP ME FIND MY STUFF!!!
They were all of my favorite things
Truth is I know who has my stuff I let him walk away with them when I told him to go
See he took a part of me when I left
and it wasn't any of the things that needed to go
I had self esteem before he walked away with my stuff
I had joy lord please help me get my joy
I was happy all of the time!!!
LORD PLEASE TELL HIM TO GIVE ME MY STUFF BACK!!!
He stole it from me and now I'm lost
I don’t want you! I just want my STUFF
Because once I get my stuff back then ill be on track
You wont be able to tell me nothing
Just to let you know I will never let you or anyone else take my stuff again
And you know what!! You wont have my stuff for long!!
See God is gonna take my stuff back from you and I cant wait til that day comes
Until then ill be patiently waiting for my stuff you might wanna give it back before I take it by force!!
I lost it in the realm of possibility
The realm of creativity
Someone please help me find my stuff
It was a huge bag full of joy happiness self esteem and much more
Please please please! HELP ME FIND MY STUFF!!!
They were all of my favorite things
Truth is I know who has my stuff I let him walk away with them when I told him to go
See he took a part of me when I left
and it wasn't any of the things that needed to go
I had self esteem before he walked away with my stuff
I had joy lord please help me get my joy
I was happy all of the time!!!
LORD PLEASE TELL HIM TO GIVE ME MY STUFF BACK!!!
He stole it from me and now I'm lost
I don’t want you! I just want my STUFF
Because once I get my stuff back then ill be on track
You wont be able to tell me nothing
Just to let you know I will never let you or anyone else take my stuff again
And you know what!! You wont have my stuff for long!!
See God is gonna take my stuff back from you and I cant wait til that day comes
Until then ill be patiently waiting for my stuff you might wanna give it back before I take it by force!!
No Air
flying on the limbs of my wings
trying to grasp for air
there you are standing there watching seeing knowing with no remorse
I hate you now
How an I supposed to breathe with no air
Lungs collapsing at the thought of that day
Tried and tried as we may it didn’t work
I cried for days and days did you know that
Did you really care
Tell me how im supposed to breathe with no air
Please give me some air
Maybe then my heart will be full again
trying to grasp for air
there you are standing there watching seeing knowing with no remorse
I hate you now
How an I supposed to breathe with no air
Lungs collapsing at the thought of that day
Tried and tried as we may it didn’t work
I cried for days and days did you know that
Did you really care
Tell me how im supposed to breathe with no air
Please give me some air
Maybe then my heart will be full again
Just for you
brown skin mixed with brown skin
your skin upon my skin our skin has become one
tangled up with love pain hidden and befuddled
past hurt creeping up like a Mississippi dam during a flood
eyes big brown eyes you say four but I only see two
the two I can see through
when your mad
being nonchalant
dreaming of the days and they ways our minds and souls collided with passion
the long hugs and kisses during the night with stars flashing
the uncertainty of love was at full bloom
the uncertainty of me and you was it too good to be true…
your skin upon my skin our skin has become one
tangled up with love pain hidden and befuddled
past hurt creeping up like a Mississippi dam during a flood
eyes big brown eyes you say four but I only see two
the two I can see through
when your mad
being nonchalant
dreaming of the days and they ways our minds and souls collided with passion
the long hugs and kisses during the night with stars flashing
the uncertainty of love was at full bloom
the uncertainty of me and you was it too good to be true…
Tuesday, October 12, 2010
real love type love
love prancing in the grass always sunshine in the world type love
like argue but still say your happy type love
like sitting right next to each other text you and say hey baby type love
like the love that makes all things new
like the love that makes me forget all of the things i used to do
like ive been reincarnated and came back as another person but still find you somehow love
like if it was dark outside and some one said your name i would light up the world type love
like when were apart my heart hurts type love
like wanna sit outside your dorm to greet you when you go in type love not that stalker type love but that mutual type love
like the love that keeps you up for four hours and 49 mins type love like the love that makes people know that we should be type love
like the love that is love
love
love prancing in the grass always sunshine in the world type love
like argue but still say your happy type love
like sitting right next to each other text you and say hey baby type love
like the love that makes all things new
like the love that makes me forget all of the things i used to do
like ive been reincarnated and came back as another person but still find you somehow love
like if it was dark outside and some one said your name i would light up the world type love
like when were apart my heart hurts type love
like wanna sit outside your dorm to greet you when you go in type love not that stalker type love but that mutual type love
like the love that keeps you up for four hours and 49 mins type love like the love that makes people know that we should be type love
like the love that is love
love
Wednesday, March 31, 2010
he loves you
what happens when nobody cares
when you feel all alone and you have no where to go
who do you turn to
who do you talk to
mama gone daddy wrong
well there's a love that surpasses all
tied to a blood that can remove all stains
because the lamb of God gave his life for us
he will heal all pain
take away all shame
remove all of the blame
when nobody cares you are loved
when hard times come
your feelings are hurt
and you feel that have no one to share, your issues
remember they are only momentary
he loves you
when nobody cares he loves you
through he hurt and pain he loves you
even when you do wrong he loves you
when you feel all alone and you have no where to go
who do you turn to
who do you talk to
mama gone daddy wrong
well there's a love that surpasses all
tied to a blood that can remove all stains
because the lamb of God gave his life for us
he will heal all pain
take away all shame
remove all of the blame
when nobody cares you are loved
when hard times come
your feelings are hurt
and you feel that have no one to share, your issues
remember they are only momentary
he loves you
when nobody cares he loves you
through he hurt and pain he loves you
even when you do wrong he loves you
And it was so that on the morning of marh 5th 2007 the Lord called his beloved michele Dotson to be with Him. She leaves to mourn five beautiful children a loving fiancee andher beloved mother and father.
Saturday, February 6, 2010
The wave of emotion
my eyes are red from the tears i cried
tears from the hurt and pain built up inside
you think that everytime feels different
only to end up feeling used and abused
no its not the feeling thats new
just a new person
bringing on different emotions
different ways of feeling the same emotion
so your happy
in some cases that last forever
unfortunately it cant last a month for you
so wonder why is all you can do
why must i feel used abused like a discontinued product
your taken off the shelf
no one wants to buy you before you are gone
so in the end you are left all alone
filled with emotions
confused,hurt,angry, sad, nostalgic
you wonder how can you be all of these things
and yet stll happy to have known such a person
because you remember when
and wish upon a star
oh if only they worked then ....
but only your dreams
just like only in your dreams will he remain
so we begin this cycle of emotions
you never know how you'll feel next
scared to let in people you have met
this solution of putting up a wall
seems like your best bet
until you meet that special someone who sweeps you off your feet
the here come the wave of emotions back again
tears from the hurt and pain built up inside
you think that everytime feels different
only to end up feeling used and abused
no its not the feeling thats new
just a new person
bringing on different emotions
different ways of feeling the same emotion
so your happy
in some cases that last forever
unfortunately it cant last a month for you
so wonder why is all you can do
why must i feel used abused like a discontinued product
your taken off the shelf
no one wants to buy you before you are gone
so in the end you are left all alone
filled with emotions
confused,hurt,angry, sad, nostalgic
you wonder how can you be all of these things
and yet stll happy to have known such a person
because you remember when
and wish upon a star
oh if only they worked then ....
but only your dreams
just like only in your dreams will he remain
so we begin this cycle of emotions
you never know how you'll feel next
scared to let in people you have met
this solution of putting up a wall
seems like your best bet
until you meet that special someone who sweeps you off your feet
the here come the wave of emotions back again
Monday, February 1, 2010
The Praise
So many worlds apart
Yet so close together
When you are near
I feel safe in your arms
To know what it is to be loved in you
God I love you more
Everyday yes its true
I will bless your name
Give you the praise
Your love is great
I know you bless me always
You give me grace
That’s why I give you the praise
Yet so close together
When you are near
I feel safe in your arms
To know what it is to be loved in you
God I love you more
Everyday yes its true
I will bless your name
Give you the praise
Your love is great
I know you bless me always
You give me grace
That’s why I give you the praise
All I think about
All I think about is you
And what you do
All I think about is you
I miss your warm smile
Your funny style
Oh how I miss you
Your hug
Makes me feel protected
You are a true friend indeed
I wish we could be together
And that you could tell me you feel for me
The same way that I feel for you
O how I miss you
You give me love always
Thinking of you gets me through the day
I care about you in all your ways
I thank God
And what you do
All I think about is you
I miss your warm smile
Your funny style
Oh how I miss you
Your hug
Makes me feel protected
You are a true friend indeed
I wish we could be together
And that you could tell me you feel for me
The same way that I feel for you
O how I miss you
You give me love always
Thinking of you gets me through the day
I care about you in all your ways
I thank God
Why
Why do I think about you?
Why do I feel the way I do
I really miss you yes
I know its true
I want to be for you
The more I find out about you
The more I find its true
I want to be with you
When I see you I feel blessed
Blessed to be with you
Blessed to know you
I really like you
Why do I feel the way I do
I really miss you yes
I know its true
I want to be for you
The more I find out about you
The more I find its true
I want to be with you
When I see you I feel blessed
Blessed to be with you
Blessed to know you
I really like you
The more
The more
The more I get to know you
The more I feel your love
The more I get to see you
The more I feel your touch
Even when you are not near
I know I should have no fears
The more you tell me
The more I want to know
The more I’m around you
The more I let you know
How I feel inside is sincere
I really want to let you know that
With you I have no fears
The more I get to know you
The more I feel your love
The more I get to see you
The more I feel your touch
Even when you are not near
I know I should have no fears
The more you tell me
The more I want to know
The more I’m around you
The more I let you know
How I feel inside is sincere
I really want to let you know that
With you I have no fears
I love /I miss
I miss
The way you touch me
The way you hug me
I miss
Your sensitivity
Your creativity
I miss
The way you treat me
The way you let me be me
I love your kindness
Your friendliness
I love the way
We argue over our sing
The way you say “uh huh and nah huh”
I love
When you’re flirty
When you’re silly
I love you just the way you are
The way you touch me
The way you hug me
I miss
Your sensitivity
Your creativity
I miss
The way you treat me
The way you let me be me
I love your kindness
Your friendliness
I love the way
We argue over our sing
The way you say “uh huh and nah huh”
I love
When you’re flirty
When you’re silly
I love you just the way you are
Mine Eyes
Have you ever seen life?
Have you ever died?
Have you ever seen God?
Have you seen mine eyes?
Mine eyes have seen Hearts broken
Mine eyes have seen lives torn apart
Mine eyes have seen lives turned evil
God mine eyes have seen brokenness
Mine eyes have seen trials and tribulations
Mine eyes have seen my friend lose her love
Mine eyes have been set upon many grievances
Mine eyes have seen my dad kiss my mom in a coffin bed
Mine eyes have seen many things many thing indeed
But oh lord how I love tee
For when mine eyes were set upon this world
I knew you loved me
Yes
Yes, your heart is broken
Yes, you feel lost
Yes, you are really hurting
Yes, the hurting will subside
Yes, your mind is tracing back and forth in your head
Yes, your screaming lord why me
But, wait your in his hands
So when you get the feeling
That everything’s gone array
Look around and say thank you lord
For I will say yes always
Have you ever died?
Have you ever seen God?
Have you seen mine eyes?
Mine eyes have seen Hearts broken
Mine eyes have seen lives torn apart
Mine eyes have seen lives turned evil
God mine eyes have seen brokenness
Mine eyes have seen trials and tribulations
Mine eyes have seen my friend lose her love
Mine eyes have been set upon many grievances
Mine eyes have seen my dad kiss my mom in a coffin bed
Mine eyes have seen many things many thing indeed
But oh lord how I love tee
For when mine eyes were set upon this world
I knew you loved me
Yes
Yes, your heart is broken
Yes, you feel lost
Yes, you are really hurting
Yes, the hurting will subside
Yes, your mind is tracing back and forth in your head
Yes, your screaming lord why me
But, wait your in his hands
So when you get the feeling
That everything’s gone array
Look around and say thank you lord
For I will say yes always
The lost soul
God spoke to someone and said hey you
The person said who you are
God said lost soul come to me
So the light you will see
It is me you need indeed
Come to me and you will see
It is me you need
Every knee shall bow
Every tongue confess of how great I am
For I am lord of lords
Above all the earth
My family shall inherit the kingdom
The person said who you are
God said lost soul come to me
So the light you will see
It is me you need indeed
Come to me and you will see
It is me you need
Every knee shall bow
Every tongue confess of how great I am
For I am lord of lords
Above all the earth
My family shall inherit the kingdom
Hold on
A heart is broken
A love torn apart
Sad memories bound up
As we weep we tried
To keep our love alive
Old on to the love you have
Lord knows the pan you have each day
Oh we live our lives everyday
So all I can say is hold on
A house of broken dreams
A life full of things unseen
A child in love with life
Trying hard to fight
The pain inside to hard to bear
Mourn no more you will love again
Hold on to the love you have
Lord knows the pain you have each day
Oh we live our lives everyday
So all I can say is hold on
A love torn apart
Sad memories bound up
As we weep we tried
To keep our love alive
Old on to the love you have
Lord knows the pan you have each day
Oh we live our lives everyday
So all I can say is hold on
A house of broken dreams
A life full of things unseen
A child in love with life
Trying hard to fight
The pain inside to hard to bear
Mourn no more you will love again
Hold on to the love you have
Lord knows the pain you have each day
Oh we live our lives everyday
So all I can say is hold on
♥ the change i want to create♥
that one day i could create a change
in the generation under me
so that we can be the change this world needs
daring to be different
in the generation under me
so that we can be the change this world needs
daring to be different
prayer for confusion
confusion the worst thing to feel
how do i erase it
by praying to you
a love brand new
full in bloom
thought it was you
and that maybe true
glory and honor is due to
he is able to do exceedingly
and abundant things in our life
to God be the glory
thank you lord for getting me to this point
I love you with my whole heart you are awesome to me
in everyway
please help me not to be
a complaining because i know that you gave me
what i asked for so thank you lord
how do i erase it
by praying to you
a love brand new
full in bloom
thought it was you
and that maybe true
glory and honor is due to
he is able to do exceedingly
and abundant things in our life
to God be the glory
thank you lord for getting me to this point
I love you with my whole heart you are awesome to me
in everyway
please help me not to be
a complaining because i know that you gave me
what i asked for so thank you lord
a collection of work
In this blog you will find a collection of work some with my deepest thought hidden between the lines. If you have any critiques then please post them. Thank you!
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