Foreclosure

Foreclosure

I knew this was coming 

There was nothing I could do to keep what I held so dear

After countless family arguments I grew silent

Not wanting to step on any toes or ruffle any feathers

It hit me like a strike of lightening 

The place I grew up was snatched from under me

The guilt came in like a flood

The shame overwhelmed me

Maybe if I would have stayed we would still have it.

I smile politely when asked about 5742 

No one knew of the times I sat outside of the abandoned house drowning in my tears

The times where I would just sit on the steps and remember all of the memories

Family gatherings, My first kiss, my dad meeting my first real boyfriend and so much more

I still drive by the street that I lived on for so many years

Missing the freedom to go in my beloved home

Missing all of the memories I held so dear

Sometimes I take that  street just to get a glimpse of what used to be 

Although I know it will never be the same